The Wiki page says enough (too much, really), but in brief, I'm best known as the organ-shredder(!) in the No Wave band The Contortions, the hell-fire-spitting provocateur of Lizzie Borden's Born in Flames, and lead singer of the first out & queer all-female punk-funk band, The Bloods. My alleged infamy springs from both truths and spurious tales. And contrary to what most internet music sites claim,
I was not born in Germany.
How do I spend my time today? Telling stories. Helping others tell theirs, too. Forever learning how to weave a stronger, finer fabric.
Way back when (ancient herstory — the mid-to-late 1970s and 1980s) I was half-Piaf, half-Hemingway, wishing I could sing and write as well as both whilst dancing and brawling my way through Cleveland, New York, Berlin, Amsterdam, London and points beyond. Wrestling in public with quite a few demons I should have dragged into a therapist's office taught me a thing or two. I've calmed down considerably, have shred the binary and am armed anew with a benevolent four-letter weapon. Call me he, call me she; I will not shame you for mis-gendering me. This Pan needs to go ninja Houdini often, but do check in now and then and I'll try to stay up to date on current events, thoughts, & meanderings.
Freedom. At all costs freedom. I do come out of hiding now and again, given the right lure.
Do you dance? I do, as much as possible. You never know when a girl might be called upon to break out her Viennese Waltz.
Here are a few videos of me performing in the 'olden days'.
PAN as always. 1978 dancing with Janet Stein at Nan Goldin's loft, being filmed by Vivienne Dick. That's Nan in the BG snapping away.
A note about this video for Just a Mirage: Jellybean keeps removing the better quality videos of this track in an effort to erase my participation as lead singer and co-writer –– because he never paid me a penny in royalties and continues to steal from me in every way possible. I just discovered this month, June 2019 that he's also stealing my half of the performance royalties for the recording of Just a Mirage from Sound Exchange. Dude doesn't even know how to play keyboards! He's completely faking it. I don't like to grouse publicly, (and trust I have every right to when it comes to the music biz) but the guy is a thief, a fakir, and an a-hole. 'Nuff said. Enjoy my song! The song I co-wrote and sang!
In 1992 my friends and I put together a band called ALICE and did one show, for one night only, at the Pyramid on Ave. A. Kathy Rey and pat Place are on guitars, Barbara Merjan on drums, and Julia Murphy on bass. This band was ROCK AF. Unfortunately you can't see Pat, and only glimpses of Julia and Barbara, but Kathy is shredding on guitar, and I'm singing in my skivvies. Enjoy!